Today we had a yard sale. It was kind of a crappy day to have one…cloudy, and kind of gross out. None the less we did make some money. And I got to jam with a guy….he played my guitar that was for sale and I played my brand new cigar box guitar. After the yard sale we head off to get dinner. It is sweet to just have a nice dinner with Theresa and Darwin. After dinner we head to Target. Then we decide to drive up to Twin Peaks to see if we can see any of the fireworks…You see today is the 75th Birthday for the Golden Gate Bridge. And they are supposed to be celebrating with a huge pyrotechnic display. It seems as though the rest of the city has the same idea….This place is packed! So we drive on….we end up on a hill above UCSF. We hike up the hill and find a great spot to watch. We huddle together to keep warm. As the show starts I feel like a super dad. I really cherish and enjoy the connection with Darwin. I love my family so much. I love this city so much. Happy Birthday Bridge.
This is the second time in my life that I have wished an inanimate object a Happy Birthday. Last year….On Memorial Day weekend we drove to Livermore to wish the Livermore Light Bulb a Happy B-day. That was a little more strange. Nonetheless….This was a little strange and bittersweet for me too. You see, I think the bridge is great enough I guess….But it is also the most renowned suicide landmark in the world. More that 1500 people have jumped off the bridge. Last year before the project started I was suicidal. Extremely overwhelmed, depressed and in a terrible place. The bridge was something I would entertain in my plans. So I see it as something not so great as well. Kind of like seeing both sides of a coin at the same time. I am very glad that things are a lot better for me now. This project really has helped me in so many ways. My life is filled with intention and purpose. I love giving…it makes me feel so good. I always say “How bad can life really be if I can still find a way to give gifts on a daily basis?” And I feel much more connected to reality nowadays. This project has truly saved my life.
Take it easy. Take care.