Day 144 – In The Bardo Pond

I am sitting in the Demo Kitchen at work.  I just made about 6 dozen cinnamon rolls for the whole morning crew.  There are plenty leftover so I start giving them out to customers.  Mostly regular customers.  A few homeless folks come in sometimes in the morning to get some coffee…I offer 2 of them cinnamon rolls.  I am very excited.  Today giving really feels good.  Urgent.  I am anxious.  I want to show all the world how good giving can be.  I want to help people connect with each other.  To not be strangers.  Funny that after all these days of giving I still think that I haven’t done enough.  I feel like I am only learning and starting out.  My project has changed me so much in 5 months.  Wow.  Almost halfway!  I am reinvigorated each day, with each gift I am ready to start a new.  I am alive.  I feel it.  I feel my connection to people.  I feel like I know a secret and I just can’t keep it in.  I know love.

This butterfly is my attempt to paint this anxious and urgent sense of love and connection.  I want to paint this huge abstract feeling.  It feels so big….indescribable.  I cannot contain it.  But I see it in my head.  I read a quote that read….(paraphrasing) “The people that truly see the connections between all things often are the same people that see every little thing as wholly amazing.”  I feel this sometimes….not all the time.  But I can look at bugs and wonder about their life.  I see plants and wonder about their souls…I am amazed at so many things that I have overlooked so many times.  I do this a lot with music too.  I can remember one time in particular, it was when I discovered Peter Gabriel.  20 years after everyone else.  And I couldn’t stop talking about his music to anyone who would listen.  I had found genius and had wondered if anyone had ever seen or heard it.  Of course they had…but I was busy at the time with other things.  How funny?  Good night.

SOUNDTRACK: Explosions in the Sky, Earth, Bardo Pond (all band names)



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My name is Joshua Coffy and I am an artist living in San Francisco. You can see my art at as well. Thanks for your time.
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One Response to Day 144 – In The Bardo Pond

  1. Linda Garrity says:

    Another amazing powerful post….since I have had the privilege to meet you personally, I can almost feel your excitement and urgency as you describe them here, but also because I feel the same myself at times, much so more recently in my life.
    The other day I watched the teaser episode for Kiefer Sutherland’s new drama to premiere in March called Touch-one of the main characters is a young autistic boy who has literally never spoken out loud in his entire life, but through the show the audience is allowed to hear what is going on in his brain; at the beginning of the show he quotes an old Chinese proverb that says, “An invisible red thread connects those who are destined to meet regardless of time, place or circumstance.The thread may stretch or tangle, but it will never break.” The young autistic boy feels that it is his mission in life to help make the connection for those people he knows are meant to meet. It’s quite the intriguing premise and I’m looking forward to seeing where it goes as a series.

    In doing my research to find the direct quote, I came across this Red Thread Project which took place at a school not that far from me-I think you might enjoy listening to this artist’s conception of the idea and where she decided to take it:

    Your painting that goes with this give/post also moves me…….you know me and my thing about butterflies, but aside from that, I think it really does capture what you are trying to convey. I have the very unusual luxury of having the time/lack of responsibilities to be present in how I go about my day, but all around me I see the people you speak of who are just to busy and don’t seem to be aware of any of it at all. It’s quite sad to me, but I don’t know how to reach anyone….

    Nice soundtrack….three more bands I’m unfamiliar with, listening to Explosions in the Sky as I type this and like it. Thanks so much for all that you do and for taking the time to share it with the world.


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