Tonight we are having dinner at home. Theresa’s family is in town for Darwin’s Birthday. Her Mom and Dad, Jean her sister, and her 2 girls…Ava (4) and Ella (2). After dinner I run downstairs and whip up a batch of Jean’s favorite cookies…..my legendary Peanut Blossoms. Jean is surprised that I made them so quickly. Everyone enjoys the gift. I am worn out. With the Holidays and Darwin’s birthday going on and then juggling everything else, I am spent. I go to bed early. No painting tonight. I feel bad that I am letting the paintings slide. But I am kind of overwhelmed. And depressed….today I weighed myself and I have gained 15 pounds since my diabetes diagnosis. I am beyond stressed. I worry about the project as a whole. Can I really do this? I don’t think I really understood just how big this thing is when I started. I knew it was big….but I still underestimated my work load. I will just have to find a way. I believe that I HAVE to do this. And I gotta break out of this funk.
This painting is of Burning Man creator Larry Harvey. Today’s painting is about the first year I went to Burning Man. 2003. That year was a very crazy time. Theresa and I had been together for about a year. She had been several times….and it showed. When we arrived people were stopping us on the ‘streets’ to say hi to her. She was like playa royalty. I remember being so transfixed on the noises and sounds coming from across the desert from our tent. Explosions, music, bullhorns, sirens, more music, crowds spewing oohs and aahs. It was a lot to wrap my head around. It was hard to figure out how all these people had brought all this great stuff up to the desert. Big art, a roller coaster, an old style saloon complete with it’s own swamp, cars with bars on the backs of them, etc. It was almost overload. Sadly we had to cut our trip incredibly short because Theresa had a medical emergency. At the time one of her best friends gave us the keys to his house in San Francisco and told us to go there….and that he would pack up all of our stuff. This was an amazing gift. My first experience with Burning Man’s gift culture and I didn’t even realize when it happened. I have been 4 more times to Burning Man and I still learn something new every time. Thank you Larry Harvey for making this event a reality in the world.