Day 95 – Candy Order Disorder

It is early….much too early for a lot of people to be at work.  6am.  I just clocked in.  As I walk towards the back room I see Melissa, today’s ‘giftee’.  I hand her a box of my awesome cookies.  (Modest, I know!  ha ha)  I tell her that it is a ‘thank you’ gift.  She has been training me on how to write the candy order for our entire store.  For the last 2 weeks she has handled every question and concern of mine with ease and a smile.  She is pretty awesome and works really hard.  And I just wanted to appreciate everything she has helped me with.  I know she will enjoy the cookies.

This painting is an odd one.  I have been thinking about death a lot today.  I don’t think that people think about death enough.  Not in a morbid way….but more of a motivating way.  If you could fully realize that you were going to die what would become most important to you?  Your time?  I am so glad I am doing this gifting and painting.  I want to look back when my life is over and know that I spent at least one whole year giving all I could afford to give.  And painting with all of my energy and free time.  I will know that it has inspired people to give, and to be more creative in their daily life.  To understand that we are all connected.  That the actions we take influence everyone and everything around us.  And that I did just what I wanted to do….for at least a short time.  Then I will die.  And I can’t wait to find out what is next.  I think about that….and I compare it to wondering what I will do when the project is over.  What is the next phase?  Where will I go from here?  What will be the next level?  What are your thoughts about death?  What are you going to do with the time you have left?


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3 Responses to Day 95 – Candy Order Disorder

  1. Linda Garrity says:

    Wow, deeply reflective thinking going on in that head of yours, but very thought provoking questions. I admire that you have the forethought to be pondering these types of issues at such a young age.
    I personally am hoping that my last breath is the true end of me-I’m not wishing for and even dread the thought of anything afterwards, mostly because I can’t figure out how EVERYONE who ends up in heaven can possibly be happy there with all the dysfunctional family dynamics that go on here on earth.
    My husband turned 60 yesterday and we had dinner with some long-time friends; our friend Julie was peppering him with questions somewhat similar to yours, which lead me to think I have never in my life had the idea to look forward and think about what’s next.
    While I’ve never embarked on anything close to the journey you are on here, the only thing I’d like to feel when the end comes for me is that I did my best to be a kind person and know that I did influences many other’s lives in a variety of ways.

  2. Nici says:

    I think about death quite often too, Josh. Especially as I get older, and especially now that I have children. I thihnnk about things like how I don’t want to leave them with any financial burdens. How I want to leave them with alifetime well spent and appreciated within their presence. How a house that they can always come home to, a place where they are always welcome is so very important to me. I especially try to be as present as I can in my life and in the lives of the people that I love and care about. I don’t exactly believe in Heaven or Hell and all that jazz. I subscribe to the philosophy that matter, that energy is never destroyed only transmuted, and that even if the energy from my body just goes into some dirt or rocks or plants or something, I’m alright with that. Especially now that I have kids, because in a way they are my immmortality. But hey, you never know right? I mean if there turns out to be a heaven, I’m pretty sure that I’ll be fine and not end up roasting or something. lol

    • Linda Garrity says:

      Interesting thoughts and perspectives, Nici-I love hearing about how others view this topic but I live within a community of Catholics who don’t have that much to say. Although today, my friend for whom I volunteer in the Catholic grade school library, who is one of the most devout and guilt-ridden people I know, had three young classes in a row this afternoon (which is always quite the challenge) made a quiet slightly negative comment to me about one of them and then said “Oh, for sure, I’m going to hell in a hand-basket”, to which I replied (even tho I don’t believe in all that stuff), said, “Can I come visit you sometimes? Maybe we can fan each other?”
      I found that quite funny!

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