I have been thinking about death for a couple of days now. Not in a morbid or depressing way but more of death as a motivator…as a way to judge my time spent. I believe that “what matters most in my life, is what I do with the time that I have.” What experiences have I created? What did I share with the people around me? Did I waste my time being distracted or, is there real value in the things that I have done? Giving, answers a lot of these questions for me. Through giving, I create joyous shared experiences. I am far more efficient with my time. I share a great deal of life with the people around me. I actively participate in the world. This project makes me stay as present as possible and answers death’s call. I am not ready to be done yet. I am still here…working. I am still here….giving. Not distracted easily. Present. Valuable. When my dad was about to die, he wrote each member of my family a letter. In my letter, he asked what it would look like to paint death on canvas, as it was so near. I have not been able to fully appreciate that question or even come close to an answer. I think it would look very much like Alex Grey’s ‘Death’ painting (above). As for the underlying question about death itself…I have been thinking of death as a reflection of my life. What you have created here and now will be shown to you in death. You don’t have to wait to die to go into some mystical light….or heaven….or nirvana. You need to embrace what you have and where you are now. You possess the power to make the world as you want it to be. Just be.
The Gift Prolific is an extension of what I want this world to be. My reality. Giving to your friends, family, neighbors, and strangers is a creative process that I have chosen to make my daily meditation. It only really works if you are present and living within each experience. Painting is my answer to how I want things to look. It is what I want to see….what I want to show others. This ‘Blog’ is also about sharing this process with all of you….And getting to see how the project changes through your participation! Where will you take this idea? What will you create? How are you going to create the things that you want in this lifetime….before your time runs out.