I have been ‘off’ quite a bit lately. I can’t seem to communicate effectively with Theresa or Darwin, or hardly anyone else for that matter. I feel like I need to ‘rewrite’ every single thing I say to anyone. I am sure this will pass. I hope it passes soon. I don’t know for sure what is wrong….It’s like my signal transmission isn’t being received clear enough. Today’s gift was a lot like this too. We are walking into Lucky’s Grocery Store and there is a mom and her son selling candy bars for a school fundraiser. I decide to make this today’s gift. I buy one ‘World’s Finest Chocolate Krisp Bar’ for one dollar and I donate an extra dollar to the cause. I hand the bar to Theresa. The mother thanks me….but the son, really doesn’t say anything. Maybe he is shy. Maybe he is a little confused….Whatever it is, we make a scant, if any, connection. No shared experience. No smile. No nothing. I wonder if it is because my gift is not well intentioned. Maybe it is a symptom of how I feel about my communication being so off lately. Whatever it is….it is not very satisfying. I wonder if other gifts will miss their mark from time to time? What part of these misses is my responsibility? On the ride home I second guess this gift over and over in my head. Theresa says “Wow, the ‘World’s Finest Chocolate’ has really gone down hill quality wise…’ We laugh. It cheers me up, a little. There is always tomorrow I suppose.
This painting is a tribute to the ‘World’s Finest Chocolate’! You know these bars….they are sold for school fundraisers. They usually cost a dollar. I contend that they are not very good. Theresa, however, says that she used to love them! And apparently they have gone down hill. I wonder if it because they have stopped using superior cocoa. Maybe the recession has destroyed the budget for ‘World’s Finest’. lol. Hopefully they will claw their way back to the top! And hopefully, my communication skills will return soon, as well.