Trying to find a balance. For the last two weeks I have been pretty ridiculous busy. I quit my job and have not had a day off since. The tough part about working for yourself is that there is no one to pay you on time. hehe. For the most part I have been painting as much as I can. In April I have 3 art shows! The first on is hanging up today at Cell Space. 12 of my paintings that are repainted versions of my Gift Prolific paintings will be there for a few days. I am told this is during a big few days of meetings for Burning Man folks from all over the world. How cool?! I am very excited to share my art with all of you! I am honored and excited.
The next exhibition is ‘Universe: The Art of Existence’ for Warholian.com at Modern Eden Gallery on April 12th. 60 artists were given a very short time to make paintings about existence. I am very excited about this show and my piece for it.
And finally, I have my big duo show with Jeremiah Welch called ‘The Golden State’. Loosely based on animals. This show is a big step for me as it is my first duo show. I am working hard to get 12 paintings done for this show. I have just under 2 more weeks to go. I hope you all can make it out to this show. At Lower Branch gallery (233 Eddy St. April 18th from 6pm-10pm).
So you can see I am a busy dude. Here is the thing…..even though I may not post about it. I have found ways to give everyday! Even with being this busy the giving train don’t stop! I over-tipped a waitress here and bought coffee for some stranger their….etc. Yes we are all freakin mega busy. But you really aren’t too busy to give. If you open up to giving, you will find ways and opportunities everywhere. Seriously. I laugh when people tell me that they would give BUT they don’t have *time *money *patience – for it. You are only kidding yourself. Go out today and find a way to give. It will make a huge difference in you daily life. And if somehow, you don’t see that, then you lose nothing. And you can thumb your nose at me. hehe. Maybe even in person at one of my art shows! Take care.
This has been a week of epic proportions. Early in the week I got to cash in on one of my birthday presents and went to see TOOL with my friend Sarah at the Bill Graham Civic. They are an amazing band and I always walk away from a TOOL show inspired to make art. To follow that up, I got to make breakfast for the whole morning crew at Trader Joes on Saturday and on Sunday. This would be the last time that I would get to do that because…..I quit my job! Sunday was my last day at Trader Joes! I have worked there for ten years. And it’s time to go. I have outgrown it in many respects. But I mostly am leaving to explore the art world and see what I can do with the painting gig. It’s a little scary….and very exciting. I guess you could say that it’s a gift to myself. I also feel like it’s a gift to Darwin….I want to show him that ‘when you have a big idea, you just go for it 100%’ so I hope he starts to see that. What a grand adventure…
My posts have been sporatic lately. Mostly because of my new found schedule. Also we are having internet issues at the house. Things will hopefully be back to normal soon. I have a big show in April coming up and I am painting a lot for it. big news next week. As for now I am going to go paint the day away. Take care. Talk to you soon.
I believe that I can do this…..so now I just need to go do it.
The big gift this week is a ‘just because’ gift to Darwin and Theresa. I was working the studio and they came running in to tell me very excitedly that they were just at the park and someone let them use their tennis racquets for a few minutes….and they apparently loved it. It was really great to see them so excited. A few days later I had to mail out a few packages, and next to the post office is a Big 5 Sports. I popped in to check out the camping gear. And then it hit me! I stopped over in the tennis section and found some inexpensive gear. So I got Darwin a jr. racquet with ‘Dora’ on it and Theresa a decent adult racquet. When I got home I wrapped them up in a big box. Put the boy down for a nap. And waited for Theresa to get home. Darwin woke up when she walked in and excitedly said ‘We got you a surprise tennis racquet!’ sigh. So much for surprising her. Anyway….they love the gifts and I feel really good about it too. Take care.
Week 10′s gifts: candy for a birthday at Trader Joe’s, tennis time, donated to yet another kickstarter campaign, donated a piece of art for BMIR Fundraiser, gifted a print to a French man, gifted a coffee gift card to a coworker, day off.
I just realized I am 2 posts behind. Sorry about that. I have been busy busy busy. I have a few cool stories to share and hope to get them posted tonight. Thanks for hangin in.
Sometimes you get thrown by the bull. What really matters is getting back up….somehow. This past week has been as challenging as ever. All the more reason to give and keep giving as a part of my daily practice. This week I donated to my friend Lieven’s fundraiser for Lymphoma through Team in Training, gave a chess lesson to my friend Kathryn (which is a gift to me and to her), took the boy out for a day instead of working, made some art for people, etc. But instead of talking about the specifics of this week’s gifts I wanna talk a little bit about this project in general. I was recently told that I was ‘showing off’ with this blog. Meaning that my giving and my stories were very self centered and that I made this out to be an exercise in self congratulations.
(No, this is not from Craig Jacobson.)
This has made me really think about the blog and the project as a whole. And I think I have a valid and clear response. When I started this project, I was in the worst shape mentally of my entire life. I was suicidal and having a hard time dealing with day to day events. When I realized that giving was my way out of that dark space it changed my life. And I wanted to share that with everyone I could. When you find something that you are so incredibly passionate about it is impossible not to share it with people. Especially when you find that so many people are hurting and suffering. I wanted (and still do) to inspire people to do things that they believed in. It doesn’t have to be giving….it’s more about inspiring people to follow their bliss. To chase their passion. If it were just about the giving then this blog would not have any paintings on it….I also wanted to paint more than I ever had before. I can see where this part may look like I am showing off….but seriously, who cares? I love to paint. I hope that people connect with my art. But I would still make it if no one checked it out. I have to. It’s ingrained in me. I can’t even help it.
So in response, I am not showing off. I am sharing my journey. If you can’t respect that, then I kind of don’t have time for you. I have paintings to make and gifts to give….and my own life to deal with. Take care.
I didn’t realize it but I skipped a week of posting. Ok, that’s not entirely true. The real truth is that I skipped a week of giving as well. At first I felt very ashamed. Then kind of relieved. Then ashamed again.
I didn’t really notice that I had skipped a day or two of giving until I had a near panic attack and a major bout of depression. The funk. And usually when the gloom shows up I fight back by giving and at least trying too change my perspective….but not this time. This time I indulged in the bullshit. Now you can say I am overwhelmed….or maxed out. And I would agree that I am pretty busy. You would think that I could cut myself some slack…but when you are being victimized it is really hard to do. So I am just gonna let this play out. I skipped nearly a week of gifting. So what? I will find a way back. What really matters is finding new ways to give and fight back. so here goes.
As many of you know I had to stop the February Marathon yesterday. I have received a few comments in full support of me doing what I want to do. I really appreciate that. Thank you.
This early ending, has made me look at the original GP as well as last year’s February Marathon and realize a few things. My life was so incredibly different back then. Theresa was not working and was able to take care of Darwin most nights as I painted away and posted blog posts until the wee hours of the morning. Now if she has much energy after work she eats and hangs out a bit before getting Darwin ready for bed and collapsing. Darwin is now 4….back then he was a little easier to handle. Nowadays, he needs constant attention.
Back then….I was a part time employee at Trader Joe’s and a painter that was painting part time. Now I am a full time artist trying to make ends meet by making art for shows and people. I guess you could say I am way more busy than I used to be.
I am not saying all of this to complain. Just getting some perspective out of my head. I am glad things have changed. I think it would be a sad state of affairs had I made NO progress. There is probably NO WAY that I could ever be able to line up everything and do the original Gift Prolific again…and I am not sure that I would want to. It was an amazing thing. It really happened. And many of you are part of it.
And I am glad that I can step back and make this decision….It gives me more of a connection to doing art in a way that is less work…and more passion. So I am considering this release of the February Marathon a gift to myself, my family, and my fans. Thanks for supporting me through all of the learning process….and let’s see what happens next.
Take care. Go do what you want to do….even if it doesn’t work out.